Seperti ilmu padi, semakin berisi semakin merunduk. Ungkapan ini lah yang seharusnya dijadikan sebagai pedoman hidup manusia intelektual yang masih menyematkan arti sosial di setiap liku kehidupan mereka Mereka tidak hanya akan mengagungkan jutaan ilmu yang melingkari otak mereka, tetapi mereka juga mempunyai empati terhadap jiwa-jiwa lain yang kekurangan kesempatan untuk mencium tanda-tanda peradaban yang dilakukan akal mereka. Sehingga, aku kerucutkan tulisanku untuk membahas bagaimana idealnya manusia berakal dalam menyikapi hujanan akal pengetahuan yang berkemungkinan membuat mereka terlena akan kemapan mereka, buta terhadap bentuk-bentuk lain yang menyeramkan, tuli terhadap jeritan-jeritan yang mengusik, dan diam diantara segelintir hati-hati yang mencoba bertahan.
Sekarang, saya hanya mampu menangisi segerombolan kejadian yang telah saya lewati. Kejadian yang akhirnya menggerakkan aku untuk meninggalkan singgasana terindahku selama sepenggal periode kemasyuranku. Saat itu, dunia beserta isinya seakan milikku, hingga detail-detail bumi pun tak luput dari pencermatanku. Ku coba ketahui segala pengetahuan yang ada dan akhirnya aku sukses untuk memperolehnya. Aku merasa bangga akan apa yang aku lakukan karena hal tersebut sangat mustahil diperoleh tanpa adanya usaha yang keras. Ku bayar proses itu dengan keberhasilan yang sempurna, hingga kulengkapi semua itu dengan keangkuhan. Sikap yang aku dapati dari diriku, dampak dari kemapanan pencapaianku. Ku lihat segalanya nampak begitu kecil, hingga aku merasa terheran-heran menyikapi hal-hal yang berukuran mikroskopik tersebut. Ku dengar suara itu begitu jauh, hingga aku merasa tidak butuh repot-repotuntuk mendengarkannya. Ku menari-nari di tengah kerajaanku yang sedang bertengger indah di sekeliling ilalang-ilalang yang lebat.
Setelah aku cukup bosan dengan rutinitas itu, akhirnya muncul kekuatan yang mendorongku untuk bertanya pada jiwa yang kolot ini, apa yang sebenarnya aku cari dari hidupku? Apa yang menjadi tujuan pencarian pengetahuanku? Apa manfaat pengetahuanku terhadapku dan MEREKA? MEREKA, ya meraka, pandanganku masih terlampau kabur untuk menjelaskan definisi mereka. Haruskah aku memberikan kesempatan mereka untuk sekedar melihat megahnya kerajaanku yang tidak mungkin habis walaupun mereka menggrogotinya dengan ganasnya? Mereka yang selama ini kurang aku mengerti keberaadaannya karena selama ini hidupku berprinsip untuk selalu menganggap mereka remeh dan tak berguna. Mereka tak berguna, karena tidak ada yang memfungsikan. Mereka lemah, karena dikompetisikan di jalur yang bukan bidangnya. Mereka tak berakal, karena meraka bersanding dengan akal-akal yang dikembangkan.
Kejayaan itu ada siklusnya. Tidak lah mungkin suatu kerajaan berkuasa selama sepanjang kehidupan. Kita hanya perlu menunggu sampai kita memperoleh puncak kejayaan dan setelah itu mengamati penurunan dari titik klimaks kita. Kita akan mendapati diri kita dianggap bodoh oleh sekawanan orang-orang yang ketika ketika sedang berjaya, mereka belum bisa melihat apapun. Bagi mereka, aku adalah orang lapuk yang bodoh yang segala yang aku yakini tidak lagi dipercaya siapa. Sama persis ketika dulu aku pernah melihat jiwa-jiwa yang teorinya selalu aku anggap terlalu konvensional. Semua adalah tentang putaran, dan waktu yang akan menjawab semuanya. Maka kita hanya perlu bersiap untuk menunggu giliran kita.
Maka dari itu, betapa kasihannya manusia jika mereka hanya mengagungkan pengetahuannya tanpa menyadari bahwa kejayaan mereka lambat laun akan terenggut. Ilmu itu bukan tanpa tujuan. Ilmu itu buah, yang tidak hanya dinikmati oleh penanamnya saja, tetapi hampir semua orang yang membutuhkannya. Kita tidak diharapkan bercongkak diri atas pengetahuan itu. Yang perlu kita lakukan hanya berpikir bagaimana caranya ilmu itu akan dirasakan dampaknya oleh sebanyak mungkin otak-otak yang kelaparan. Sebarkan ilmu sebanyak kau hirup udara yang dianugrahkan terhadapmu.

Dave Weinbaum asserts: "If you can't excel with talent, triumph with effort." This saying motivates many people to fight their terrible fear and keep the highest power in progress to gain their life destinations. Notwithstanding, usually they also fully realize they have many weaknesses that are likely to impede the progress and encourage its failure. If they face the doubt of success, they only have to be determined that nothing is impossible when humans have desire to try to get the ultimate success. 


It is my own experience that story about how I change my notion about talent and effort. Bangkok and Thammasat finally reinforces my belief that a talent is not everything because we can win everything we want with our hard effort. Before I acknowledge the rightness of that belief, I was always accompanied by the fear of failure in academics. In Bangkok, I am expected to quickly adapt to new situations. I should be accustomed to study with different people in different system of learning. At first, I doubted on my ability to be able to achieve the high score in academic matters. Actually there is no one that gives me responsibility to gain excellent academic score but I always force myself to show my best performance. Nevertheless, I had many obstacles in my own mind to success on what I plan to do. Thammasat predicated as the second-best university in Thailand unconsciously depresses me and bring me to get my lowest confidence. 


Why I failed to build my self confidence in my new environment? It is not far from the reason that I felt so weak, so small, and less powerful because I always considered all conditions in Thammasat have the higher standards than mine. I was a little bit apprehensive about my capability that would be competed with other students. Thammasat has best learning systems and its system makes the impression on the tight regulations, the high grading standards, the perfect academic staff, and the best chosen students for me.


First, I worried if Thammasat applies burdensome regulations that were likely to make me difficult to follow. I want to give the best image as Indonesian exchanged students transferred to study in Thammasat. However, I was afraid I cannot undertake all ideals I have. For simple example, I am expected to arrive at campus punctually. It is not a hard obligation for students who are customized to come to class on time. However, I very realize that I cannot be categorized as a diligent student that always obeys all of Thammasat official regulations.


Secondly, Thammasat University and its best learning system can guessed it will apply the higher grading standards than my home university’s standards. I thought it would be difficult to gain a good score in Thammasat although actually I had joined all of Thammasat courses’ in my home university. However, it does not simply study over again in different university because what Thammasat courses’ materials have more detailed explanations, further analyzed contents, specific information.


Thirdly, both worries above are completed by the condition that I have to compete with many high quality students in Thammasat. I consider myself as student with an average intelligence and it will be hard to compete with Thammasat students. I am conscious that I have a lack to memorize. Besides, the ability to remember is very needed in my History classes. I have to memorize the names of important figure, the name of particular events, the details of date and causes. I am expected to know the details of historical knowledge without doing analysis at all. I prefer to analyze certain topics, searching as much as my own data (regardless any standard of lecturer' data), give my own objective opinion, build my scientific interpretation, and make my perfect conclusion. I think it will be more essential than students are only demanded to remember all information lecturer have prepared for them. Unfortunately, desire may skew reality. Thammasat learning systems require its students to know all information presented by the lecturers, not to have their own opinions.

Fortunately, Now I am not worried about whether I will gain success in academic matters or not. Alllah always gives me guidance to be able to solve my problem. With the permission of Allah, I always attempt to show my highest effort in academic matters. Regardless what score I can gain, I study as strong as I can. I never give up although at first I felt so weak because of three main reasons above; the regulations, grading standard, and high quality students. My mid-term examinations become an example of the idea that all things can happen if humans want to show their efforts. I use my weakness as learning for the next steps and undertake the powerful efforts in facing mid-term examinations. Finally, my efforts equal its results; moreover, it is not about talents. It is about attainment that all humans can achieve although they have so many weakness and less talents. Two points that I can learn from my weakness at the first time I face different conditions in Thailand and Thammasat as specific. Those are the importance of self reliance and the belief that all objectives can be achieved by all people with their high efforts. Now, you can imagine, I as an academically less talented student can gain success in academic matters, why are there still many people always say "I cannnot because I have no power (talent)". People only have to show their efforts!  


SEMANGAT GENERASI PENERUS INDONESIA! :) 


Aku terjebak
Sisi kanan membuat ku nelangsa
Sisi kiri menampakkan keangkuhan diri
Ingin rasanya ke atas
Namun tak kuasa merampas
Ingin menyusup dari bawah
Sayangnya hati ini meronta

Aku terjebak
Di antara mata yang terbelalak
Di antara setan-setan yang menertawakan
Di antara ejekan-ejekan yang disuarakan

Aku hanya ingin bisikan
Yang datang bersama harapan
Bukan kegelapan
Yang hanya memberikan ketidakpastian

BANGKOK
Wednesday, October 13th 2010

Benjamin Disraeli states: “a university should be a place of light, of liberty, and of learning”. However, nowadays many universities compete to attract a wide range of students without any development of better learning formats in their institutions. Fortunately, there are some universities that still commit to improve their learning performance so that it will support to achieve the learning objectives. One of those is Thammasat University that always attempts to reform its education systems to provide the best learning service to its students. Therefore, Thammasat University stands as an exemplary university that provides facilities, research institution, and extracurricular supporting students’ learning progress.
One of some reasons why Thammasat University can be classified as top university is because it is capable to serve a great range of facilities needed by its students. The facilities include bank, bookstore, IT, dormitories, libraries, post office, press, radio station, sport center, and medical services. These facilities will benefit to encourage its students gaining the best way of learning. For instance, students will face extreme difficulties if there is no press media in the body of education institutions. Everybody needs press to share information and news because press is a media to bring enlightenment in certain issues. Thammasat tries to help its students to escalate the broader knowledge through press. Another example, medical services also become the most important facility in TU. Students will be guaranteed affordable medical service, a full range of medical equipment, and many competent medical experts. All of medical services can be gained by students without any charge. Therefore, all facilities served in TU are very beneficial to support students in their learning progress.
Secondly, TU is able to organize the useful research institutions. These institutions commit to some aspects of knowledge such as health, pharmacy, economics, politics, and literature, and many other branches of study. As a learning college, TU is expected to contribute on human thinking development. Furthermore, TU will not only give benefit to such internal parts as students, staffs, and lecturers, but it also assists in the expansion of human intellectual ideas. TU at least has four research resources which are Thai Khadi Research Institute, the Human Resources Institute, the Information processing Institute for Education and Development, and the Institute of East Asian Studies. TU Research institutions have succeeded to donate on the moral and intellectual human development. Investigating the research quality can be the best way to appraise an education system. It motivates Thammasat to form the committed research institutions. Until recent times, Thammasat still has ability to maintain its researches.
Thirdly, TU facilitates its students in evolving their creativity through what it is called “extra curriculum activities.” Thammasat students begin to improve not only perspicacity but also their creativity through basketball, Thai boxing, dancing, and other students’ activities. It is important for humans to have intelligence, but creativity also is demanded by occupations and work environments. Thammasat has attempted to build organization to accommodate all students’ activities so that TU alumni are expected to have both creativity and intelligence. Thammasat serves the media to improve students’ creative talented activities. Academic matters always become the main objective of all Thammasat students; however, their outside-class activities reveal a great deal about them. Those activities give big benefit to determine a meaningful contribution and train to manage time and priority. Therefore, TU classroom learning is not simply in the form of theory but TU students will be able to apply knowledge from their class to the real world. TU students will get experience from volunteer work, religious organizations, sport activities, and some other actions. For example, medical students can spend their time to work at hospital, explain about healthy life to common, and also tutor primary and elementary school students. They were trained to give contributions to society as well as to learn real-world skilled such as team work, leadership, and organization skills. All extra curriculums help students to manage their needs and interests.
In short, TU successes to have predicate as an exemplary university that always gives fully equipped facilities, innovative research institutions, and creative extracurricular. A university cannot be categorized as convenient university if it is unable to facilitate and serve the high standard of learning systems. TU is considered as top university because it can commit to defend its best learning quality. 
::A Mid-Term Examination of Academic Reading and Writing Class::

Sometimes humans have to do what they don't like to do! Kalimat itu aku kutip dari omongan temenku German. Lagi lagi dia membuatku mulai berpikir, membuatku mulai memperbaiki jalan pikir, membuatku sadar sesuatu yang kadang aku abaikan selama ini. Gaya bicaranya mengena, yang kadang begitu menyakitkan karena penggunaan kata2 yang terlalu blak-blakan. Tapi hal itu berhasil menamparku dan mengganguku yang sedang ada di zona ternyamanku. Karna terlalu nyaman membuat kita terlena, membuat kita buta, membuat kita tidak peka, membuat malas untuk berpikir.


Sometimes humans have to do what they don't like to do! Begitulah idealnya manusia. Lagi lagi aku harus bilang, jangan gunakan emosi karna akalmu yang akan mampu menjawab semua pertanyaan.


Coba kita buat ilustrasinya. Ahay! :)
Ada dua orang yang kelaparan, sangat kelaparan dan gag ada bahan makanan pun yang tersisa di daerah terdekat. Tragisnya, kalo mereka gag segera makan, mereka akan mati. Berarti disini ada 3 kemungkinan:


a. Pasrah dan mati
b. Makan temannya sendiri
c. Berusaha mencari dan mencari apa yang bisa dimakan


Pilihan A akan dipilih orang2 yang lemah, yang tidak akan bisa bertahan dimana pun keadaannnya. Pilihan B akan dipilih orang2 yang menjunjung mazhab "lakukan apa yang kamu ingin lakukan". Pilihan C akan dipilih orang2 yang pantang menyerah, orang yang menggunakan akalnya dan mengabaikan emosinya. Karena mereka percaya emosi kadang menjerumuskan. Mereka berusaha keluar dari zona nyamannya. Dalam ilustrasi ini, zona nyaman tersebut digambarkan ketika mereka memutuskan untuk memakan temannya sendiri. Tapi apakah hal itu tidak menentang ideal yang seharusnya? Zona nyaman tidak selalu yang terbaik untuk kita. Manusia punya otak. Gunakan lah selagi bisa. Haha.


Oh iya, ilustrasi tentang kanibalism itu aku dapet dari mata kuliah American Historyku. Ini bukan hal yang tabu lho para pembaca sekalian. Sejarah Amerika menyebutkan adanya Donner Party. Donner Party merepresentasikan adanya suatu kelompok yang hijrah menuju California. Yang menurut pandangan mereka, California itu dianggap sebagai daerah yang sudah mengakui adanya kebebasan beragama dan kesederajatan manusia. Itulah sebab mengapa mreka memutuskan untuk melakukan perjalanan ke tempat tersebut walaupun cuaca pada saat itu yang tidak mendukung, pas winter cing! Haha. Enak kayaknya bisa liat salju. Eh eh, balik ke cerita awal, :) Selama perjalanan mreka ke California, mreka kehabisan bahan makanan. Akhirnya, mereka memakan teman mereka sendiri dan kejadian ini yang disebut Donner Party.


Wow, tulisanku berantakan! Apa gunanya menyelipkan materi kuliah di dalam tulisan pribadi. Haha. Lagi lagi aku melakukan kecerobohan. Gag papa lah. Hal tersebut suatu bukti kalo aku begiiiiiiiiituuuu mencintai apa yang aku pelajari sekarang. It always gives me so much much much fun!


Untuk menghindari adanya kemungkinan menghasilkan tulisan yang punya inti banyak dan bercabang, maka saya akhiri tulisan ini sampai disini. Haha. :)


Ada banyak jalan menuju Roma! (Entah nyambung atau gag dengan tulisannya, tapi aku suka kutipan ini) Haha.

Usually, somebody undertakes sport either to fill their free time or to expand their hobbies. No wonder there are many branches of sport which are enable many people to do.  They also usually include material exertion and competitiveness in it.  However, there are some kinds of sport that don’t require a huge amount of power and indeed need a high existence of thinking. Hence, we can arrange sport into three categories based on the balance of mental and physical necessity as its purpose.
Sport with less exertion has the similar concept to hobbies. It usually concentrates on the mental than on the physical utmost. It never fulfils the physical expectation to the subjects because the main aim someone practices this sport is to obtain pleasure. Some sport such as golf, chess, equestrian, and archery belong to the category of less power sport. All of those sports need brain to undertake and give mental satisfaction after the subject practice those sports.
Different from the category of previous sport, there is sport which requires both mental and physical activities. These two elements have to run in balance. For example, football players should have their own tricks to conquer their opponents. Also, they should have massive strength to do their tricks rightly. It is not the simple activity to be undertaken by someone of certain group in competition. Therefore, there are many people like football as entertainment. Now, football competition becomes one sport activity which is very popular both to be done and to be watched.  Except football, other sport such as basketball, volleyball, and baseball also require both main necessities above.
            The last category is sport with the high degree of power.  To produce sweat as much as possible is the purpose of human majorities. They practice this sport to win their physical necessity. This kind of sport ignores the brain usage. Some examples of this sport include wrestling, boxing, and marathon.
            In summary, sport can be classified into three categories: sport with less physical and much mental necessity, sport with the balance of both physical and mental necessity, and sport with less mental and much physical necessity. Each of all kinds of sport above has its different purpose from others. Thus, if you want to choose what sport you will undertake, it will be better to you to definite your purpose of doing sport.


:: When I was a second year student, I produced it on my writing class.

An expression ‘love will make our life more colorful’ has represented human feelings. Its feelings are composed of happiness and admiration as well as empathy and loyalty. However, love will take a turn for the worse if you face the similar love experience to me. My story took place two years ago when my ex-boyfriend hurt me and declared that our relationship ended. Since that moment, I considered my life would be worthless. Fortunately, I succeeded to find my prescription for being happy every time so that I was ready to run my life without love.
Changing my worldviews is the first step in my prescription. At first, my life was always hidden my first unpleased love experience and now I am brave to become stronger woman without any love problem. I feel my life lighter than before because love will not burden me with its doctrine anymore. At first I deemed love as the most important thing in life and now it becomes the secondary thing I am not obligated to get and give. According to me, love is important but it is not the most important. I am convinced that I am able to become better although I am not being in love. Now my important thing is continuing my life for my dreams. I think I can get love from the other people such as my parents, relations, and friends. Moreover, I am also able to become the high-quality single without any people that will confine me to not do my activities. Many worldviews change I have done for my life delivered me to become stronger woman.
Having known I do not have any relationship, now I am customized to fill all days with many activities. I focus on the positive things in my self, in all interesting and tremendous things that I have. I occupied my self with the useful activities. Actually, all human have hobbies, and so do I am. I always used my time to do and expand my hobbies instead of being unemployed. Much alike with hobbies are habits. My habits that I usually do after being no relationship are listening to favorite music and reading both printed form and browsed form in cyberspace. I will compile my songs in I-pod and make my life more colorful with music. After doing my activities, I usually treat my body so that it will make my appearance fresh. Now, I have enough self-confidence to get socialized.
Broadening my friendship with everyone is also my ways to ignore my feeling of love. Now, I begin to associate with everyone from various circles of society. I will maintain my old-friends and increase my new-friends. Occasionally I act the foolish behavior together with my friends and laugh will become the interesting refreshment to me. That is why I would always expand friendship although I have had the most equal partner to fill my feeling for being in love.
            In short, my three steps for being happy without love have helped me to forget my last love experience. I will change my worldviews, fill my days with activities, and broaden friendship if I feel I do not get pleasure from this life because of not being in love. Will you follow my prescription I have shared with you if you get the love problems?


:: When I was a second year student, I produced it on my writing class. 

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